Aspirations of a slave

To fulfill Goddesses desires, to quietly be a device for her betterment, to genuinely wish and strive for Her goals and desires to be met, to enrich Her life with mine. These are my goals in life. This is my motivation in life.

Of all the things i want to give my Goddess, i can't decide between happiness, peace, euphoria, satisfaction in life, i know i want them all for Her. i want Her life to be so perfect and easy for Her and for Her to always feel She is exactly where She wants and needs to be. i want Her purpose on this earth to be fulfilled, for Her to give to the world Her Divine Beauty and Grace, for the world to hear Her Voice and see through Her Eyes, what She sees. i want to provide for my Queen, my servitude and devotion and worship, and everything She Needs Wants and Desires. my Goddess should not have to pay for anything or worry about money or even know the price of things. She should only know She is loved and provided for by Her slaves, and that we are grateful and appreciate all that She does for us. i often sit in my car , driving, thinking of all the things i could be doing for my Queen, gifting to my Queen, if She should choose to allow me to continue in Her service. i dream that She will one day be thoroughly pleased with my devotion, that She is happy in Her life and that i am one of her loyal slaves forever, because i have been able to provide my full servitude to Her in every way She desires, because Her life is exactly as She wants it, She is happy and fulfilled with Her days and has never to worry about a thing She doesn't care to worry about. Kneeling at the Foot of my Goddess i would continue to learn how to make Her Happy, i want her affection and i want Her Discipline and Control, Her attention; i have been gifted some of these things by my Queen but i haven't always deserved them, She continues to correct me and i need to repay Her with my devotion. i Love being owned by Her even though it always just a chance, everyday to possibly be of any use to my Goddess and prove my worth to Her. i want to do so much better, it makes me sad to know i am not the ultimate or ideal slave yet, and i often drift, in my car on the highway, into daydreaming about being that perfect slave for Her. i dream about it before i sleep at night, and i hope i have come to accept a little more that this is my purpose, to dream about only making her happy, and never to worry about what i may desire. May i desire to gaze upon Her Beauty, Her body..of course, but it is not my place to desire Her, do i dream about Her calling me Her Favorite slave, of course but it is not my place to worry about my ego, if She were pleased with me that is Hers to know, mine is to serve ever diligently, always trying to be better, to learn more. If She is dissatisfied and decides to let me know, i will find out then. i find my thoughts more clear, yet i am still so so far away from being worthy of my Queen, i have so little rambling thoughts now thanks to my Queen, and it is hard sometimes to express myself freely as i did before, yet Goddess demands it and rightfully so that i explore my feelings for Her weekly and i hope She will publish them , although lately this has not been the case. i need to dig deeper and i know in some way i must be failing because She is always right when She says i am wrong or criticize me or writing and performance. This gives me great calm and hope for the future, hopefully one day i will learn how to learn perfectly from Her, and serve her perfectly and exquisitely, always put a smile on her face from sunrise to sundown to the best of my slave abilities. i want to be wrapped up in Her warm embrace, the embrace of Her Holding me, with Her Control of me, just the sound of Her Voice or Her Word or Her Directive puts me in my warm safe place, where I know my place and i am so happy and proud to look up at Her, to Her. i spend hours each day thinking about being Her perfect slave, cherishing my time each day speaking with Her if She gifts me with Her attention, doing my daily rituals and knowing i am hers keeps me warm, but what am i doing more for Her to repay this? i know my heart is Hers and i am available for Her whenever She needs me, but i often know i haven't earned more yet, more responsibility and trust to enhance Her life, and yet She has kept me, given me the opportunity to learn at Her Perfect Feet and for this i am forever grateful